something

A flood 
Rush 
Onset, a wild knowing 
How did I come to find 
Myself so alone, darkened 
Room, elderly people below 
Wondering a wish for wonders 
Child in my arms, afloat 
Adrift 
Waves on a gray carpet with white dots ?

$20.99, the carpet, not the boy,
a world against all odds 
Aflift afloaft, amidst (!) a universe|
Against all odds I wish to wonder 
How could you take so seriously this dream? 
Governed by unknown 
Chaplained by vicars of insanity 
“Usher mine self, o lord, into a palace 
Of saintly virginity”, unwondrous of who I might 
Become - knowing only of this, the glide of a rocker in a 100 year old home, babe 
in my arms. Eternity. 

/

Broken systems she said to me.
She rises every day, obviously not with the sun
And not in good fortune to drink in 
The hazy wine of hatred and distrust 
All is lost, all is broken, a set of Russian dolls 
Housed within Russian dolls -
Maybe it was the breath of my child,
Or the $30 dimmable light by my bedside, 
But I asked her to wonder too,
To wish for herself something that might 
Fill her heart with ________